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As an only child and only grandchild I spent a lot of time exploring alone outside. My people taught me to notice the sounds and sights in the surrounding landscape and to appreciate both its beauty and bounty. I spent the summers with my grandparents in northern Florida and we made several trips each summer to visit my maternal great grandmother in southern Alabama. I was maybe 4 or 5 years old when I was playing in my great grandmother’s garden watching a Monarch butterfly gracefully flutter among the Phlox and Lantana flowers. The air was hot and humid, resounding with the sounds of cicadas and the moment was filled with wonder and discovery, resonating with an underlying sensation of kinship. Almost 20 years later on the road to graduate school in Illinois, I found myself stranded on the side of the road. It was a very hot August day so hot that the little gasoline remaining in the tank had evaporated. The year was 1993 long before personal cell phones were in everyone’s hands so I stood on the side of the road waiting and hoping for help. I began to look more closely at the space around me. Slowly I became aware that as far as the eye could see was the yellow gold of dead dry grasses. Then I noticed a small black shape in the grass and knelt down to look at it closer. It was a very sad moment as it became clear to me that it was the body of a dead monarch. I gently lifted it and held it in my hands. It was so light, fragile and lifeless. When I looked beyond my hands, I could see the grass at my feet all along the roadside in the median between the two sides of highway, and all the way across to the other side, the grass was littered with the bodies of more monarchs. I realize now this most staggering first hand experience, that we, humankind, have not been mindful of our actions, their impact on the environment and other living beings was a gift and set the course for the development of my work to this day. I took the monarch I had lifted from the grass along with me to school and drew it many times mostly as a means of integrating and memorializing the experience in my great grandmother's garden as well as the tragic scene along the Illinois roadside. It remains in a jar on a shelf in my studio.
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